Immortal Words

Words can heal you, words can kill you.

Words can motivate you, words can discourage you.

Words can kill you, words can break you.

words can make you memorable, words can vanish you forever.

Because words travel to heart before reaching ears.

At 4000 ft altitude, amidst of bone biting cold on the Chandrashila peak, in the Garhwal range of Himalayas, Manish finally made to the summit. He found a dark patched rock to sit and the chilling wild breeze not letting him sit steadily on the rock. The mid-afternoon sun failed to penetrate through his linings to provide him warmness. Though he is panting, his mind is focused on some other thing. Manish still can’t believe that he said those words to her. Manish and Riya have planned a trek together in the month of December, but due to the heated discussion between them, Manish went alone as Riya was no longer interested to continue her relationship. The chilling breeze is bashing Manish’s ears. Manish is feeling restless, overburdened but nothing has been successful in impeding him from getting lost in the memory lane. He is feeling breathless not because of the 13000 ft trek but due to his guilty conscious.  He could carry his 30-litre backpack on his back to the summit, but he is not able to carry the burden of his doings.

Manish is always loved and appreciated by his family, friends and relatives because of the way he carries himself, the way he talks and by his goodness. Manish is a cheerful guy, who keeps smiling and always cracks jokes with his peers and friends. He is a great fan of the quotes and sayings which he follows on Instagram, Facebook and other pages. He never likes to say anything to others when he is in anger, cause he knows that words spoken in anger, hurt more than the actions which cannot be undone. He knows that words are immortal and they can be forgiven but not forgotten. Throughout his life, he has been holding himself to this one simple philosophy. Bu,t what was not supposed to happen has happened on that day. Manish failed to follow that simple philosophy as his relationship with Riya was going through a tough stage. Manish felt like, he said those words which were not supposed to be said to any girl no matter how bad she is.

Guilt

When he was relieved from the rage, his days were never the same. For the first time in his 33 years of life, he is so desperate to go back in time. He didn’t want to go back in time to change or manipulate Riya, but to undo his eccentric behaviour which lead him to break the simple philosophy he followed. Unfortunately, it can happen only in the world of fantasy. Now Manish has to live with this guilt.

None of his trek mates who made to the summit had a clue about what’s rattling in Manish’s mind. Manish is searching for ways to devoid of his guilt. He also knows that even if Riya forgives him and continue talking to him out of her kindness, his conscious will not allow purging his guilt. Manish realized what a terrible person he is. Manish accepted the fact that he belongs to the flock who chant good words about the path one shall take as a person but fail to espouse.

He started talking to thyself, ‘Who can calculate the inflicted wounds, their depth and pain by harsh and mean words spoken in anger? How pitiful a sight of a man, who is strong in many ways but loses all control of himself, when something usually of no significant consequence down the lane, disturbs his equanimity?’ the words said by Gordon B.Hinckley.

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The sun is settling down to give way for the constellations and moon to show up. It was an enthralling view from there as he could see the winter line separating the peaks of mountain ranges with the sky full of golden clouds. Manish started to trek down in agony and grief of being helpless to undo the guilt and decide to be a poem without words so that he can never ever hurt others by his words. Because the words we speak are Immortal. These words will be echoing to the person till they get healed of the scar made by mean words we speak in anger.

‘Not the fastest horse can catch a word spoken in anger’ – Chinese Proverb

The sun disappeared leaving the twilight behind unlike the guilt of Manish which is still shining high on him. Suddenly he heard an incoming message alert from his mobile and took a deep breath as he managed to get the network on his mobile. His eyes lit up, he took his mobile out and dialled to Riya…

“Hi, I wanted to talk to you for two minutes. I owe you an apology, truly I didn’t mean any of the words I said to you that day. I’m extremely sorry for everything I have said. I’m not apologizing to prove anything or to prove my sanity. I’m doing this to lessen the burden of guilt I’m carrying with me”.

Riya said OK and bye after Manish said thank you. For the first time after many days, Manish’s heart started beating in rhythm. Manish felt very happy and admired the kind heart of Riya for attending his call and listening to him with patience even after whatever happened.

Afflictive emotions – our jealousy, anger, hatred, fear – can be put to an end. when you realize that these emotions are only temporary, that they always pass on like clouds in the sky, you also realize they can ultimately be abandoned. – Dalai Lama

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